Restless nights

I hate when I know I have to go to sleep but can't seem to turn my brain off. I've been having so many restless nights lately....maybe it's because I miss my family and I'm excited to see my mom, maybe it's because I still have lots to do and so little time, maybe it's because vacation time is just around the corner and I'll be spending a week not only with Frank but with Becky and Walt, who knows what keeps me awake....all's I know is I need sleep. I've turned to over-the-counter sleep aids and they work a bit, but only when I get past the weird dreams and hallucinations. I envy those that can lay their head on a pillow and be out like a light. I've never been able to do that. I tend to lay and run my day through my head and then I start thinking of the things I didn't get done or forgot to do and then start thinking of what I need to do for the next day. I've become so depended on my BlackBerry to write everything in it that I need to do and on what days I need to do it. There are some nights that I lay awake wondering if my phone is going to ring in the middle of the night with bad news....sad, huh? I've tried putting off discussing this with my doctor but it's looking like I'm going to have to talk with her about it. I just wish I knew how to turn off my brain when I don't need it on.